Even if I stretched my arms, I still couldn't reach you ...
I still remembered that day, clearly, oppa. I was standing in the middle of pearleascent skyblue ocean, shouting SHINee for thousand times. MEIS was crowded, and in the middle of our waiting, we enjoyed SHINee's songs from past until now. Happiness, it should be called. Honestly I was like in the middle of unconsciousness because my tears has been flowing for about 2 days since SM declared that Onew oppa couldn't attend the concert. The news was like a lightening stabbing my heart, I cried a lot although I was at class at that time. Honestly, on June 22nd, at 6 am-10 pm I was waiting, I was waiting for some miracles .... Onew oppa confirmed he would come to Jakarta. So during the concert, I kept waiting until the very end. It wasn't I didn't like the rest of SHINee's members and only liked onew, I love SHINee so much, to the moon and back. But my bias is Onew oppa. How much I wanted to see him? I couldn't even describe by words, I really want to see him directly. That was why I gave my all to attend SHINee World Concert III at Jakarta, my money my time and many more. Even I used much less money than before, because I planned to buy some merchandises. Thankfully I could buy some, T-shirts, lightsticks, towel, and snapbag. Maybe they're not complete merchandise, but I and my sister were happy having them. But oppadeul, sorry, I couldn't feel as happy as I expected before the D-day of SWC, it wasn't because you didn't do well. YOU DID VERY WELL, thank you. But the sadness still remained, I couldn't lie to myself that I felt sad and happy at the same time. I did crying at the end of SWC, I just couldn't take it anymore. The video of Onew oppa was like another lightening stabbed my heart. Hey, I heard there'll be SMTown Jakarta at October 2014, oh this should be my turn to meet and see Onew oppa. But sadly, I'm not rich, and to be honest I have spent much money back then during SWC. I dont think I can buy a ticket ... Eventhough I wanted to see you Onew oppa, so badly. Really, I never expected that the destiny would be like this.
Maybe God didn't allow me to meet you at June 22nd 2014, or maybe not at SMTown, I don't know when ... what I know is I just want to see your smile directly so I know you're real. Whenever and wherever I met you, Onew oppa, please stay healthy and shining like the shinniest star. Would you like to smile at me the moment we met? I'm your biggest fan, and forever will be.
My promise.
Ranita
